When first speaking with Wendy she made it very clear that she was not going to hide anything, she wanted to share her journey in full detail. She wanter this to be as real as possible so that she may possibly reach out to someone going through the same or similar situation as her. Actually, knowing that we are going to share everything motivates her to the max, she doesn't want to let anyone down, especially herself and her fans. So, here is her latest blog and weight stat.
Starting Weight 158lbs
Two Weeks into the diet weight: 150lbs
How did I get here again? How after close to 39 years of struggling I let myself get this fat again? The sad part is I can remember the day last year in April when my favorite regular jeans were too tight. After that day something deep inside of me gave up! I let every excuse I could find rule my life for the next 8 months. Until, today when by the Grace of God, with the help of my 2 great friends and the help of Susan's Healthy Gourmet I got the strength to start again on the diet journey I had failed so many times before! I clearly have to accept that my weight is going to have to be something I must find a way to make peace with. As a child it was my choice to compete in a sport in which you must be thin and be weighed in at least 3x a week. My life is stressful and I suffer from depression; this makes everything I do so much harder. I need to find a way to stick to the diet this time; I also need to learn how to take care of myself. Wow, this is way harder than I thought...
STRESS!!!! Is adding to my depression, yet the one yoga class I did make made me feel so much better. Why is it I cannot get myself to yoga? I know it makes me feel better. I am not on this diet to get super thin, I am only trying to get back to feeling healthy. My normal weight 128, this is where my body works. I feel so stressed and scared, most of all I feel so alone. I keep telling myself I am not alone I have the two best girl friends a person could wish for and all I keep thinking is how I don't want to disappoint them yet again! Is that what they really feel or is that what I feel?
On the turnJ Today I got up, went to yoga and felt great. Then I came home to only cry for the rest of the day! Lonely and I am so scared to write this but I think my real problem is, I don't love myself. Why did I let this happen again, I keep beating myself up over the weight gain. I really just need to focus my energy on the diet and the exercise. Some days it is so hard to see the light at the end of tunnel.
For 3 years I loved my body and I thought I loved myself and just when things are about to go really great I do something, I gain a ton of weight and give up. Thank goodness the food is so good or I think I would have already given up on this diet too.
My ex-husband stop by today to visit and he just told me I look thinner. I was shocked and happy that he made the effort to recognize my weight loss and that he offered the praise. GREAT DAY
I so want to break 150. I am going on walk now and I know that one will not cut it, but hey one is better than none. I have not been a big veggie eater in last 2 yrs but the eating all night after taking bedtime meds was not helping. Now I keep the cut veggies out and I spray them with 1 tsp of low fat Chinese chicken salad dressing from Far East only 15 calories per tsp I just use one spray over veggies, beyond great!!
Jan 20, 2009 at 1:52 PM Susan Healthy Gourmet:
I am so moved by the honesty Ms Rees is willing to share with all of us! I have the same feelings towards myself and I just keep them in. I really was thinking I was the only one who felt this way. To read and to feel her pain is to acknowledge my own pain. Thank you Susan ! Thank you Wendy. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Kerry
Jan 20, 2009 at 9:29 PM Thanks for acknowledging that weight is affected by so many emotional and situational influences. Thanks for you candor and honesty!
Jan 21, 2009 at 8:02 AM Wendy,
Do not beat yourself up!!!
How great for you you should be so proud of yourself! Learning to love or even like yourself is a journey many people go through whether they want to admitt it or not. I have found only after 40+ years I am just starting to like myself and not always care what other people think.
You do deserve to be happy just remember that.
Keep going
Lynne
Jan 22, 2009 at 8:32 AM I listen to Wendy every Tuesday on her radio show so when I read her Blog about your company I went to read the whole story and to my surprise I am so impressed with the honesty Wendy is willing to offer us women! I hope Wendy will get back to the place she feels comfortable at but most of all I am so impressed with you at Susan's healthy Gourmet to take on a these women like Wendy and to offer her your services and support! Now that is giving back! Great Job Susan!! I can see why Wendy called your company instead of doing some crazy diet pills and starve herself she knew she had a friend in you and your company!!!
Nancy
Jan 22, 2009 at 2:01 PM Wendy is a friend & fellow yogini who has a great spirit and is filled with love and compassion for others. I am very proud of her for taking care of herself in this healthy way. I know she will succeed in her goals and get to a place where she feels
at peace with her body, mind and soul. Keep eating healthy, keep laughing and keep doing your Yoga Missy!
Namaste
Maria
Jan 22, 2009 at 8:39 PM It is really wonderful that this plan is based on healthy living and not a fad, a fast or a freaky diet pill. What a relief that in today's market with all of the cure-all pharm-solutions out there! It may not be as 'easy', but it is all about lasting results... Congratulations and keep up the good work! How 'healthy' of you!